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My goodness it has been a LONG time since i've posted on this thing..

I bought a desk today! 
Literally so excited, I already feel more productive.
I had been slowly redoing areas in my room so it best resembles me,
and is a conducive area for creativity.

So much has and is changing,
and I just wanted to share what God has been doing in my life!

Okay, so lets start off with a big one...

Back in April I had visited my dear friends Bryan and Brie, in Florida.

I cannot tell you how much I treasure their friendship and presence in my life! 

During my visit Bryan had given me an opportunity to participate in leading worship
for the Youth's mid week program.
What an AMAZING night of worship it was!

It was one of those nights were you just felt His presence lean upon you. 

I am so thankful for that experience.
It was like taking a drink of fresh water after days in the desert.

God spoke to me in a moment of reflection
and he said to me
"This, This is what you are to do".
I had no idea what that meant!
Like, cool okay. I'll worship you Lord.
But what capacity do you want me to do that in?

I can't explain exactly what I had felt that night after group,
but it resembled something like grieving. 
This makes sense now.

I had read this devotion that night that talked about
going beyond your comfort zone,
and security, to follow Gods plan.

Not going to lie, in that moment
I'm like
Lord, do you want me to move to Florida?! 
And the answer to that one is...


Florida was not where God was leading me to,
but I found out over the course of a few months where he wanted me to be.

In case you did not know this about me,
I was on staff at Crosspoint Community Church!

I say was because as of a few weeks ago...
I quit.

This was a hard and long process praying and discerning where God was at work in my life.
I LOVE kids, like they are the bomb and my heart overflows with love for them.
But Children's Ministry was not my passion. 
I believe God had called me to fill this role and contribute, learn and grow during this past season.

When I explain that I no longer work at Crosspoint I have gotten comments like,

"What's wrong with Crosspoint?"
"Why don't you like Crosspoint any more?"

So to get this clear...
Nothing is wrong. I didn't stop liking Crosspoint.
Following God's leading means leaving Crosspoint at this time.
I am so thankful for the amazing opportunities I have had and
I am definitely a better person because of my experience there.

So what are you going to do now?

Good Q.

So, over the summer I had reached out to an acquaintance about coffee shops
in the Minneapolis area.
To make a long story short, 
We ended up meeting up for coffee in the twin cities while I was on a trip, 
and now she has become one of my very good friends!

MacKenzie is apart of this program called
Life Leadership College

again to make another long story short,
I had picked her brain about it.

"What is LLC all about?"
"How much is it?"
"How long is the program?"
"What is an average week look like?"

After weeks of praying, and meeting with the director and his wife
(which btw they are AWESOME)
I had applied for the Spring semester.

So, I am going back to college! 
Starting January I am on a 4 year journey towards a Worship Pastor degree.
I will be working alongside an amazing church staff to get hands on
experience, and pairing that with college classes!

But WAIT the journey doesn't stop there!

As of today

I am employed at Stone Creek Coffee!
I am so very excited about this new chapter in my life!
(Sorry I keep saying excited, I just am!)

Just wanted to give a brief shout out to this man.

These past few months have been incredibly tough and
these decisions were not easy to make.

Sometimes following God's leading isn't always easy.
Saying yes to God in this means leaving familiarity at Crosspoint.
My security was here. 
But I would definitely be missing out
on the awesome things God had for me
 if I had not stepped forward.

I think that because I am following God's leading
the enemy wants to drag me down.

One especially difficult thing I had to go through
happened a few weeks ago.

I was driving home pretty late at night and was first on the scene
to a fatal car accident.

I will not go into details, but what I had experienced that night
effected me so much. 
I was paralyzed with fear after that.
I didn't sleep,
I stayed up till I passed out because I couldn't close my eyes
without seeing horrific images.
I didn't drive to Watertown for almost two weeks,
and It took me a while to finally drive at night.

My friend Jody had prayed over me and anointed me with oil
on my last day of work.
Since then I have not felt that same fear that had been
preventing me from functioning.


I went off on a tangent, 
but I still want to tell you about how awesome Sam is!
He has been my rock during these past few months of changes and hardships.

He prays with me.
He adventures with me.
He writes music with me.
He laughs with me.
and more!

I am so grateful to have him in my life.

So there it is.
This was the past like 8 months of my life.

Looking ahead at what God has planned for me
I cannot keep myself from smiling.
Because it's so good.
He is a good God.
He takes care of the details.

Thanks for going on this adventure with me.