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Today during my quiet time God was just speaking to me like crazy. I'm going to let you in on our conversation, because I don't feel like I'm the only one who needed to hear this. I'm also going to let you see through the windows into the ugly parts of me. I hope you're ready.

Lets go.

Lately, I've been a little more stressed than normal. 

Why do I have so much homework. I need more time in the day. How will I have enough time to plan my wedding. Everyone is getting married before us and we have been dating/engaged way longer. How will I be able to afford school if I can't get hours at work? I have to do a minor surgery to figure out whats going on with my health, but I don't want to think about the bills. Sam is really bothering me right now with how positive he is about this horrible situation.

I told you it was ugly. These are thoughts that truly go through my head, especially recently. And they're gross. I am embarrassed about these thoughts, and they aren't even the worst of it! 

Some things to note about my thinking -- Where is God? As a student studying ministry, and a leader in the church, shouldn't I be thinking more, godly thoughts? Yes. Sometimes it's really easy to get mixed into the regular busy routine of Gods work, instead of regularly resting in who God is. As Pastor Beyonce once said, "Don't get it twisted, don't get it twisted". So, God, being the loving father that he is, was tired of this nonsense and tapped me on the shoulder this morning.

Lets talk about food real quick. I don't know about you, but if I've been eating some bad food It usually shows up in the acne on my face or It shows up in lack of energy and clarity in my head. My body is just reacting to the food that it is absorbing. Junk food when consumed will  make you break out, or gain excessive weight, loose energy and concentration. 

Just like the pimples surfacing on my face signifies that I've put gross food in my body, so does the negativity that I feed my mind. I had been focused on the stress and negativity of life that It started showing up when I was impatient with my fiancé. It showed up in my anger, jealousy, envy, etc.

When you consume things that are bad for you it is going to show up in different areas of your life.

Matthew 6:22-23 (MSG) says;

"Your eyes are windows into your body. If you open your eyes wide in wonder and belief, your body fills up with light. If you live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust, your body is a dank cellar. If you pull the blinds on your windows, what a dark life you will have!"

Y'all. I don't want to be a dank cellar. I don't want to live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust. I want to live with wide-eyed wonder. What does that look like though? When I asked God that, he just pointed me to the fruits of the spirit in Galatians 5.

But the fruits of the spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.


These are the things that happen when you are eating the things that are good for you! I'm not talking about physical food, but spiritual food. If you are walking by the Holy Spirit, you will not want to gratify your flesh. Choosing our flesh over God is sinning, and sin is contagious and unless cut off, will continue to grow.

In Galatians 5:19-21 it talks about how the acts of the flesh are obvious and goes on to list them. If you find yourself and your behavior or thoughts in this list, get out as soon as possible. I don't know about you, but I don't want to live in jealousy, and envy, and discord. I want to have the fruits of the Spirit, not the poison of Sin. 

B O T T O M  L I N E //

Eat what is good for you, and you will not have acne.

Okay, so that's not the bottom line, but it is if you make it spiritual-like. 

Follow the spirit (which is good for you), and you will not want to give into the desires of your flesh. Run, flee, escape, from falling into the temptation of those things, and turn your eyes upon Jesus.